Most of the beginning of this entry I was in a different state than the second half which I wrote about a month 1/2 later.
We can change and grow quickly.
See the lesson in what is happening for you.
See what you need to learn.
See how you need to grow.
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The past few days
What am I feeling
What am I supposed to be feeling
I don’t know where to turn
What to think what to even feel
I don’t even know what I’m feeling
What is feeing??
I know it’s temporary
What am I learning?
I know It’s specific
It’s happening for me
For us
We must trust
<3 These moments <3
Being observant
Not needing to speak
Inside myself
Is that okay
It’s never really been this way
I am flowing with this
It's uncomfortable and new
But I am listening and so aware
Of what isn't helping me
And what I need to do
It’s quiet now
I am changing
Shedding like I have never before
Different personalities
Coming out
With different
Connections
Connecting to all my layers
Bringing them together
It is okay
Together we could play
It is okay
It is perfect
Now I am seeing
Embracing all of me
I have been opening up
To all that is and more
I decided to get out of my head
And into my heart
Allowing it to guide me
Stress or worry have no place where I am
Overthinking and OCD have no power
It is beneath me now
And thoughts that aren’t me
I no longer resonate with these labels
Being me
I have gone through agonizing pain within my mind
It is faced
it is released
I am no longer afraid
I am done caring what people think
Freedom comes with just this
I release the attachments
No savage
Just love
Rising above
I release caring about energy that isn’t mine
I release worry of any kind
I am free in my space
I am a free spirit
I am inspiration
I am releasing
I am keeping my heart open
I am being
Laugh
Allow
Allow yourself to laugh
Feel
Allow
Allow yourself to feel
It is good
It’s so good
From this shedding
I see I’ve always been there
Before the world got to me
But in that time
I had to experience all that shook me
In this time we have to experience life
I have connected to my essence
My bliss
My truest state of being
This place is always available to me
Even in the chaos
The anger
Or the fear
One breathe can take me closer
To what I have remembered
You can always get back there
We learn
We remember
We grow
It’s really sweet to say
I am everything I have dreamed of being
When I was a little girl
I saw me this way
I am thankful
Connecting back to my heart
So much of what I knew has been stripped from my life
Some of it was completely out of my control
Unexpected
I lost friends in these months
Relationships I never thought would end the way they did
I had to let go of years of beautiful memories
I love them
I will always be thankful
Everything I have experienced
Has led me to where I am supposed to be
It hasn’t been easy
It hasn’t been hard
It has been worth it
You will see
Before any breakthrough
What and who aren’t meant to be apart of your life anymore
Just may be taken away
And when you pray for clarity
Take a step back and watch what unfolds
Continue to flow and to play
If we are wanting to level up to reach our purest highest potential
Watch what happens
Allow this to take place
It is for you
For them
For the highest plan
If we try to control or resist
We could miss out on the beautiful blessings ready for us
The new
I have decided to heal
Keep my heart open
And believe in the work
I have been relearning and retraining all that I knew
I have gotten to the root
Darkness was needed
In it I connected to deep layers of light within
I release doubt
How can I serve?
How can I help?
My friends
Family
Myself
Being guided back to laughter
To playfulness and fun
Listen to what feels good
Follow that feeling of what lights you up
Follow your instincts
Follow through
Believe in yourself
Flow with the new
Keep going
Keep learning
Keep loving
Keep trusting
Keep seeing
Keep praying
Keep seeking
Keep living
Keep loving
Keep rising